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Hey, I created my very first icon that isn't just a part of a screencap! It's nothing special, but I did it myself! I'm completely new to this, I just downloaded GIMP (and I know that's not the best to work with, but it's good enough for me), and it took me almost three hours, since I had no idea how to do anything with it. I understand how it could become an addiction, though...


And here's the next chapter of Melting Fire.


Chapter 16: Ghosts that we knew )
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The next chapter, finally. RL is terribly busy *sigh*...

Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.


Chapter 15: Twice removed )
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Day 8: Favorite season 1 episode

That’s pretty easy again, and not only because there’s not that much to pick from - Prophecy Girl.



This is the first episode that is written and directed by Joss Whedon, and that shows. If you can ignore the still terrible music, it’s the only episode of season 1 (except maybe ‘Angel’) that could easily belong to a later season.

I love it because it is really the turning point for Buffy. Until now she did her job, struggling with the repercussions on her life, but still doing it out of reluctantly feeling responsible for the world. But right here in this episode she wholeheartedly accepts that it’s her fate to save the world and eventually die for the cause, that it’s the mission that counts, something that from now on will underlie everything she does, no matter her struggle not to let it rule her whole life. And what is it that after the initial refusal to sacrifice herself makes her change her mind? The love she feels for her friends and family - it’s her mother’s unwillingness to go away with her daughter and Willows anguish that in the end drive her to fulfill the prophecy.



It’s the very first episode that hits really hard emotionally, and Sarah Michelle Gellar knocks it out of the park. Her reaction when she overhears Giles and Angel talk about her prophesized death, her frantically trying to convince her mother to flee with her, her sad determination when she talks to a devastated Willow hurt to watch, as does seeing her scared for the first time when she is down in the caves to find the Master, but bravely goes on, and then hearing that it’s her blood that will set him free.

I love that her living differently than intended by the Watcher’s council, namely having friends, is not only the reason for her to accept her role, but also in a brilliant turn saves her! Beside the confidence boost after having proved the prophecy wrong, I always saw this as the main reason for coming out stronger than before and eventually defeat the Master.



This is the episode in season 1 with the most character growth, and not only for Buffy. Willow gets to stand up for herself, telling Xander off when he asks her to be his date after being rejected; and Giles really comes through for Buffy, ready to sacrifice himself to save her life (before he gets knocked out :) ). To me it marks the turning point in their relationship where Giles begins to become her surrogate father.

The symbolism used throughout the episode is also brilliant – rejecting the cross (the christian symbol of sacrifice) Angel gave her as a present in the first episode when she refuses the sacrifice, then picking it up again when she accepts it; her being led to the cave by a child, representing her childhood that she loses when the Master kills her; and of course the use of blood equaling life that gets picked up heavily in season 5.

It’s this episode that closes the book of Buffy childhood with a bang forever and sets her on the hard path of adolescence. I love it.
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And again I have to put it behind a cut for length...

Day 7: Least favorite season )
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Here is finally the next chapter of Melting Fire. Took me long enough. Blame it on the lousy internet...

Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.


Chapter 14: Sigh no more )
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I'm back home, and here is the next day of 55 days!
It's longer than the others, and therefore under the cut.


Day 6: Favorite season )
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I'm in Munich with my 11 year old son for a few days, the weather is fantastic, and we have a blast! Unfortunately I have lousy internet, though, so I'm only gonna post this until I get home again. Everything else will have to wait...
Here goes:


Favorite first scene of a character

Although Dawn’s entrance is a close second (“Mom!!!”), I’ll have to go with Spike.

I hadn’t really decided yet if I even liked BtVS (I look at you, s1, sharply!), when suddenly an old car barrelled into town and crashed against the ‘Welcome to Sunnydale’ sign, these black boots stomped onto my screen, perfectly underlined by punky guitar sounds that hadn’t been heard in this show until now, and this guy appeared. And I was lost.

His next scene followed, and I knew it would stay that way. The glee he was oozing, how joyfully he put the assembled vampires in their place – that was brilliant. With Drusilla entering the room and Spike changing, he showed, after not much more than a minute on screen, that he was not like all the other stupid vamps, but layered - a vampire so obviously capable of emotions he shouldn’t have, visibly devoted to a woman. His entrance left me sitting there with my mouth open.



After a season with the Master, Spike and Dru were such a delight to watch! Especially Spike had such an aura of power and charisma! Only the second scene with him was on, and already the show had gotten so much better!

Luckily he didn’t disappoint later either. In only one episode he proved to be a fascinating complex character; he was ruthless, smart, tender, averse to tradition, impatient and funny. His first scene didn’t tell us all that, but with its standing out from everything we had seen so far on the show, it held the promise of the arrival of someone special. The episode most enjoyably kept this promise.
 
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Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.


Chapter 13: Of Monsters and Men )
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I won't be at home for a few days, and since my netbook kinda broke down today, I don't know if it'll work to post anything during that time. We'll see.
Here goes:

Day 4: Least favorite female character

Since I have already done Veruca, I have to pick Amy this time.

Not for the obvious reason though. Of course it’s not very nice to take Willow to Rack and thus seal her fate to eventually get addicted; to later try to get her back on the magic when she fights with withdrawel anyway; or to play the Warren trick on her in s7. But that’s not why I picked her. It’s more for the lack of importance regarding how much screen time she ultimately got, the inconsistency the writers put her through and for the reason she returned at all.

Amy was a sweet girl in the beginning and, as the most meaningful aspect of her existence, introduced us to magic in the Buffy verse. In s2 and s3, I found it already a bit OOC that she had turned to magic after what she’d experienced being a victim of it. I still could chalk it up as a reaction to exactly this event, and although clearly dipping into darker magic, she was still kind of a nice girl who had decided to use magic to her advantage. Not a good trait, morally more on the grey side, but not really bad either, because she didn’t hurt anyone with it but herself (turning herself into a rat in ‘Gingerbread’).



When she was turned back into a human girl, it quickly became obvious that she’d been brought back for the sole reason to provide the magic buddy for Willow that was needed to help in getting her addicted. I found the turn Amy took in only a few days very unbelievable. How could she have been addicted to magic so fast? She wasn’t a girl for more than a week again! And how the hell could she have known of Rack anyway? She’d been a rat for years! We never got any plausible explanation, and thus are left with a character that feels like a plot device. It doesn't help that this is, to me anyway, the only questionable plotline in s6, and it's based on shaky ground with not much credibility.

Her return in s7 was even more of a MacGuffin. Not that her character development was that impossible or even unlikely. It was just not at all meaningful or even interesting, because again we were presented with next to no background on it apart from what little information we got shoved down our throats at the end of the episode. It was handled heavy handed and didn’t make for an even remotely compelling appearance. I feel like I know more about Cassie, who appeared in only one episode (not counting her cameo as The First)!

It’s not that I don’t like the character or the actress; she could’ve been an interesting addition, but as it was, she wasn’t by far fleshed out enough, so that in the end she annoyed the hell out of me. All things considered - after ‘Witch’ I could’ve done without her.
 
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For those who are reading [livejournal.com profile] the_moonmoth’s 55 Days – I started reading hers, but stopped as soon as I realized I’d like to do this, too, and she already had two out of the first three days picked the same as I would have. I haven’t read her Day 3 yet, nor have I checked out any of the other days. If there are any more consistencies in choice, it just means we love (or don't like) similar things about the show…though after each posted day I head over to look what she chose :)

Favorite female character

A hard question, since I already had Buffy, and I love them all. It may have something to do with my protective streak that I ended up picking her, but probably I just love her most – Dawn.
Yes, I know she’s a little annoying sometimes (not to me, but I get that others see her that way  at times). She’s a teenager, she’s supposed to be! And – she’s a lot more than that.

For one she’s incredibly brave. I have no idea how I would have reacted had someone told me at the age of 14 that I hadn’t been real until just a few weeks ago, but I think it wouldn’t have been pretty. But Dawn, after a very brief and shocking test of her being real, sucks it up and goes on. It’s on her mind, never really lets her go as can be seen throughout the show, but she lives with it.
I admire her strength and resilience, her sharp mind and her ability to think on her feet despite being scared as hell, like shown in ‘Blood Ties’, when she pumps Glory for information about herself, but also later in s7 in ‘Potential’ (which btw is the episode where her beauty really knocks me off my feet!).

She’s really smart (translating from ancient languages? People her age have difficulties with living languages!), but also warmhearted and empathetic. I will forever love her for her sensitive behavior when, and especially after, she finds Buffy on the tower and for her telling the Scoobies off, realizing they were crowding her. Also, it’s no coincidence that she’s the only one seeing the deeper feelings Spike has for Buffy (which of course is because she’s the only one not seeing Spike as a nuisance, but that’s just one more plus point on my I-love-Dawn list  :) )

With everything she’s been through, I don’t know how she doesn’t end up in a psych ward. Instead she fights back as well as she can, is understanding of everyone (her reaction to Buffy after realizing what Buffy had been up to with Spike?  ‘I know it must hurt. To feel like you have to hide, to keep secrets from everybody?’  Man, she’s 15 by then and already so insightful!) and is even a friend for Tara when she could’ve felt abandoned instead.

When she stays with Tara’s dead body – this is one of the rare scenes that, after a gazillion rewatches, still drive me to tears every. single. time.
And her giddy joy when she sees Tara’s back is just contagious:



‘No! No, no, no! Uh-uh! I’m totally not here. You guys you do whatever you want. Um. I’ll go watch TV, downstairs, really loud, in the basement, where I can’t hear anything. ‘ (Squeal of delight) ‘Oh my god! Oh my god!’ (dashes off, comes back) ‘I love you guys! ‘

I don’t know how I could not love her. I agree with Xander: She’s extraordinary.
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Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.



Chapter 12: Silent Lucidity )
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Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.


Chapter 11: Findings )
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Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.


Chapter 10: Go on living )
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Title: Melting Fire
Pairing: Buffy/Spike
Rating: NC17
Length: >100,000 words
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine. Only the plot, one demon and the veil are.
Setting: Right after 'Dead Things'
Summary: The night after, all he wants is talk.
The night after, there’s nothing she wants less than talking.
And suddenly they find themselves in another dimension; one that Buffy can’t leave. There’s only one way to get her out. A way with consequences.


Chapter 9: The pain that you feel )
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Day 2: Least favorite character

Veruca. Without any doubt.

Even if it feels a bit wrong to pick someone who appears in only one episode (plus two appearances with her band) – I can’t ignore her. And since the part she plays in Oz’s leaving is so important, and she brings up a subject that is important to the show, I feel like I’m allowed to do this. She’s the one and only character that I absolutely dislike, and not in a good she-plays-her-so-good- it gives-me-shudders way.
I don’t know how much of it is the actress; I’ve never seen her anywhere else. But I couldn’t stand her the first moment she was on screen. I don’t even like the way she sings.

Not to stay on the shallow side, though, I mostly don’t like how she behaves character wise. She’s supposed to tear Oz over to the wild side, I get that; but her whole attitude bugs me, her way of not caring the slightest what happens to people around her. She’s hurting and killing and doesn’t care. And she excuses it with her being a werewolf, when Oz so clearly shows that it doesn’t have to be that way at all.

She claims to be more alive than as a human, and free. What she means is free of the annoying conscience. She doesn’t struggle and apparently never did. That raises the question why she feels so different about it than Oz does. Is it ‘the ties to the world’ again? Having friends, a girlfriend? Maybe. But with everything I ever heard about being in a band, these are mostly close relationships. To me it’s pretty clear that she’s not without those bonds, so it must be in her personality, a personality that most likely (if Oz' development after being bitten is any clue) was the same before the bite. And a personality that perceives it as freedom to be able to hurt and kill without having to care just is loathsome to me. It’s like your random vampire, only after turning. And at the same time a not so random vampire slowly begins his journey of beginning to care for the consequences of his doings despite not being equipped with a conscience.

It fills me with great satisfaction that the only thing she accomplishes with her rousing speech is the exact opposite from what she wanted – Oz is horrified and wants nothing less than to become like her. It leads to him leaving, which is a shame, but hey, it gave us Tara!

Maybe Veruca shows the way how it's supposed to go. Oz and Spike show there is a better way, if there is the will to choose it.
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I saw this 55 question about BtVS challenge on [livejournal.com profile] the_moonmoth's page, and since my LJ is still a bit on the empty side, and my Bio sucks, I decided to try to do this.
Apparently she found it on tumblr (right?) here , where I can't comment because I have not the first idea about how to do anything at all over there. I suck. But hey, I succeeded to create a link here, that's something, right? Ugh, I'm still trying to find my way through all the mysteries of LJ...

I probably won't do this daily, though. Time, my huge problem. Also, of course it won't be betaed, so there'll be mistakes. Which reminds me that I should put my non-native-speaker-ness in my Bio at least.
Oh well.

So, here goes.

Day 1: Favorite character

The start is pretty easy. That's Buffy, of course.

I love her. Simple as that. She's not without flaws, of course not. She wouldn't be the interesting character she is then. But she is also kind, brave, and incredibly strong (and I don't mean bodily strength here). Also, even after all the crap she is given, she never ceases to be empathetic and forgiving. She may not have access to her whole inner self for a while in s6, but even then she doesn't stop caring for those dear to her more than for herself.

To be honest - it gives me goosebumps when someone calls her selfish. To me, she is as selfless as can be, almost to a fault. If she wouldn't suffer so much at the notion of her being unable to love, it would be laughable. She has such a huge heart, and is so full of love that it hurts to see her struggle with this.

From day one of her calling she struggles to maintain a normal life, but never for one second shies away from her responsibility. The only two times she even thinks about quitting are connected to her love in significant ways - the first time in Prophecy Girl she instantly dismisses the thought of running away when she realizes her friends' lives are in danger if she does, the second time in The Gift she thinks of quitting only because of her love for Dawn as qonsequence of maybe losing her. And then she quits, both times, in the only way even thinkable for her - in sacrificing herself.

It's no coincidence either that she isn't the Slayer out of the brochure. It's her love that gives her the added security net that no other slayer has, that feeds her with strength as much as she gives back. Without her ability to love we wouldn't have gotten this wonderful woman.
It would've been the Buffy from the Wish-verse.

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